The other morning I found myself pondering something that Jesus talks about, twice, once in Matthew and once in Mark. What he says both puzzles me and strikes me as outrageously wonderful. The comment that sent me into such reverie is this: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.” Matthew 18:3 (NRSV)

Somehow I am drawn to the language of poetry again. One more time, perhaps, feeling a little cramped by the prose of our lives. Prose may take me back into the battles that rage across our lives, the fierce polarized battles of who is right and what is true. Poetry is the language I need right now. I am looking for wonder, as so many are these days. When I hear the song of wonder singing in the morning, I am turning to poetry.

Last week I offered to my blog followers a poem I had written. I have not written in this language for many years. I’ve been writing prose—my blog, the classes I teach, letters on email, business stuff—always probing toward some new understanding. I used to write poetry when younger. I was a teacher of poetry for many years, teaching both the work of great poets and helping my students learn to write poetry. My students often startled me with the freshness of their language and the depth of their insight. They inspired me to see and say things differently. So I wrote poetry too.

I’ve been reading a lot from the poet Mary Oliver. There are so many of her marvelous poems swirling around these days, surely because of a fine documentary aired last week. One of her poems, “I Worried,” strikes a chord with me right now.  

I want to share this morning a poem I’ve written. It’s not an essay. It’s a poem. There’s a difference. I confess I’ve not written a poem for some thirty years. I used to write them all the time. And I taught lots of poetry. I apologize to some of the poets on my blog list. Some of you even took a few of those classes with me. Bear with me. I’m a bit rusty.

In January 1947, the great Southern American writer Flannery O’Connor, while still a young student, began keeping a prayer journal, really a small collection of prayers. I’ve been rereading this lovely little volume, A Prayer Journal, in my own journey on prayer. She was twenty-one years old when she began the writing. She was a student at the famous Iowa Writers’ Workshop. We learn from these youthful prayers how passionately she wants to become a great writer. Will God help show her the way, she asks? We also learn that she wants to love God as fully as she can, a desire not separate from her desires about vocation. Can these two deep desires live side by side, she ponders?

They tell us we are not reading much anymore, at least not in the longform. We turn to our phones and computers to read and listen to the latest news and commentary. Each of us is in the driver’s seat to select the best that is thought and said, as Matthew Arnold once helpfully encouraged. I’m guilty. I start my day waking up in the constantly renewing information and misinformation from The Free Press, daily from The Plough Daily Dig, Substack, Poems Ancient and Modern, Christian Art, the digital NY Times and WSJ, and on and on. All of this in shortform to which we are rapidly complying.

Let’s take a little different angle today. How about if we turn to a few good poets? Let me explain. I am trying to see things more clearly these days. I feel enveloped by fog, too many things to handle, too much uncertainty, too much anxiety all around. Maybe these poets can help me notice the little things. Maybe that’s the way to cut through some of this fog. Maybe this is part of God’s plan from the beginning.  

Over the last three weeks or so I’ve been looking out the window of my study onto this magnificent yellow tree. Spring is here, it seems to say. New life has arrived. I can’t imagine anything more yellow. More beautiful. It was breathtaking.

My daily poetry app, Poems Ancient and Modern, dropped a poem in my lap one morning last week. I’ve read this poem many times before, even memorized it at one point. The poem is The Lake Isle of Innisfree, written by William Butler Yeats, in 1888. One of the good things about reading poems all your life is that you get to reread them. This poem speaks to something I feel quite urgently right now: In our turbulent world, where can I find peace? And I thought, just maybe the poets can be helpful.  

Let’s return to Rembrandt one more time. We spent some time last week under the guidance of Rembrandt to learn better how to use our eyes to see into another person, how to see into our own lives as well. The painting I would like to consider today is the Artist In His Studio, painted when Rembrandt was just 26 years old. What is this young man looking for as he peers across the room at his canvas? Whatever it is, I’ve always been intrigued how much energy there is in this room, with this easel poised and waiting. Isn’t that always the way it is when we are face to face with what we love to do?

In his profoundly helpful book How To Know A Person: The Art of Seeing Others Deeply and Being Deeply Seen, David Brooks remarks that “above almost any other need, human beings long to have another person look into their face with loving respect and acceptance.” I’ve come to believe, he continues, the “one foundational skill” we all need so desperately, is not only to be seen in this way, but “to see someone else deeply and make them feel seen.”

This lovely painting by Claude Monet, Impression, Sunrise, painted in 1872, is often considered the opening of a major movement in art history. Monet is sometimes called the father of Impressionism, perhaps also the first of the modernists. This painting is a favorite of mine because of the beautiful depiction of sunrise. Sharon and I have had a print hanging in our bedroom for years. Sunrise is loved by poets and artists. It is cherished by the writers of our holy scriptures. Morning by morning, we see the faithfulness of God’s love.

We’re in those days after Christmas now. How do we adjust? I need twelve days like my Catholic friends. Perhaps you have been touched, as I have, by all the angels and singing and shepherds and oxen kneeling and especially the baby Jesus in a manger. But don’t we have to get on with real life now? We will hear that “the child grew big and strong and full of wisdom; and God’s favour was upon him.” Luke 2:40 (REB) I will look soon at the part of the story soon, but just now I’m not ready to move on from the baby. This seems foundational.

On this glorious day before Christmas, in a moment of deep pondering and expectation, I’m sending along a poem that has intrigued and delighted me since I first encountered it many years ago. It’s a Christmas poem, written by Thomas Hardy in the early years of the twentieth century, called “The Oxen” (1915). You may had encountered it too.

We have just been through a horrific week: Jews slaughtered in Australia; students gunned down at Brown University, a faculty member at MIT; a Hollywood star murdered by his son even as our President issues appalling remarks. As we continue to stare speechless into the darkness of our world, we must admit, as Paul Kingsnorth is saying these days: “You just know something is wrong.”  

In my last blog post, one of my readers, my faithful friend Bill Rowley, mentioned he wanted to hear more about the “quiet revival” going on. He confessed he knew God could be doing something new, but frankly, it’s “difficult for me to see it.” I get it. Things are a mess out there. And revivals have often been announced, then fizzle.

Some of you may have noticed I’ve been away from my blog for a few months. I’ve been very busy, teaching a number of courses, chairing the committee to bring a new senior pastor to our church, and just managing life with all its various challenges. I find I have only so much creative energy left when things get busy. My blog writing suffers. I’ve missed it.

I’ve been away from my writing for a while. I’ve been busy with any number of matters that put me into a rhythm different from my writing rhythm. But I’ve been thinking a lot about church. If the church is indeed declining in numbers and influence, as so many are arguing, how can this be a good thing for us?