I’ve been reading a lot from the poet Mary Oliver. There are so many of her marvelous poems swirling around these days, surely because of a fine documentary aired last week. One of her poems, “I Worried,” strikes a chord with me right now.  

I want to share this morning a poem I’ve written. It’s not an essay. It’s a poem. There’s a difference. I confess I’ve not written a poem for some thirty years. I used to write them all the time. And I taught lots of poetry. I apologize to some of the poets on my blog list. Some of you even took a few of those classes with me. Bear with me. I’m a bit rusty.

In January 1947, the great Southern American writer Flannery O’Connor, while still a young student, began keeping a prayer journal, really a small collection of prayers. I’ve been rereading this lovely little volume, A Prayer Journal, in my own journey on prayer. She was twenty-one years old when she began the writing. She was a student at the famous Iowa Writers’ Workshop. We learn from these youthful prayers how passionately she wants to become a great writer. Will God help show her the way, she asks? We also learn that she wants to love God as fully as she can, a desire not separate from her desires about vocation. Can these two deep desires live side by side, she ponders?

This week I begin a new chapter. I’m downright exhilarated. I’ve found freedom, not temporarily free, but permanently, to the end of my life, and beyond. Have you ever felt that way? Life sometimes comes to a pivotal moment. You get to begin again.